Acceptance; an easy one to say and a hard one to do.
I have been sitting in front of my computer all day typing a sentence then erasing it. Typing a paragraph and then erasing it. Getting the sheets out of the dryer and making the bed. Back to the computer, typing a few sentences and then staring at the screen for 30 minutes. Vacuuming the floors for the second time today. Sit back down and erase everything. Change the topic. Not a single sentence came to mind. Bathe, blow dry, and brush Tucker. You get the point….
Accepting I was an alcoholic was one of the more difficult things I have done. Accepting I’m overwhelmed and I can’t do something doesn’t rank up there with accepting I was an alcoholic but it’s still pretty dang hard and stings quite a bit. One thing I have learned, one of the most important things I have learned is it’s okay to not be able to do something. I used to look at this as being a failure. Now I look at this as self-care. I know my limits and know when I have to cut back so I stay in the best spot for my recovery.
Well if I am being real, raw, and honest then I would have to tell you… overwhelmed and stressed is an understatement. Life is hectic. Work is crazy and will be crazy while we close out the end of the year. It all caught up to me today while I was trying to write a blog post and I could not mentally do it. My mind was racing in a thousand different directions of all the things I have going on. At that moment, I had to accept I’m not superwoman and I can’t do it all.
My blog started out as a complete hobby all about fashion and every Sunday night I would share a little bit of my story with alcoholism. I never thought people would be interested in my story and my Sunday night posts, but boy was I wrong. Now my blog is all about addiction and little about fashion. Words can’t describe how grateful and happy I am about what it has turned in to. But without my sobriety none of this would be possible and that is why I have to put my recovery and well-being first. So for now, I can’t and won’t guarantee the elaborate Sunday night posts until I can catch my breath.
Don’t worry I will keep up with my daily IG posts and answer every message and email I get! 🙂
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for following along and understanding the craziness of life and the dire need to hit the slow down button.